It is purely frustrating to realise that we are define by the opputunities both; the ones we have grabbed with both our hands and the ones we have let gone off.

I would rank up high there, with letting tons of oppurtunities just fly me by especially when it hits you late in your life that you should have done that. What also hurts is that while you are sititng and obviously annoyed at the lack of oppurtunitites that come your way(partly y fault for letting so man go), you see complete imbeciles get your dream job, or see them living your dream life, just becuase they have the money and the contacts!!

ARGHH!! It is purely vent, a feeling that has come full circle if I go by the first post that I worte since I came here. I guess This country is done and time to move on accpet the truth like a mature, grown up, level headed person should.

But the impulsive and ultra sensitive and prone ot depression soul within me might not get over that so easily!

C'est La Vie

The Question

And all at once

I knew at once

I knew he needed me.

Until the say I die I wonder why

I knew he needed me

It could be fantasy or maybe it's because...

He needs me

He needs me

He needs me

He needs me

He needs me

He needs me!

I first came across these lyrics as they played in the background of an advertisment for a product I can't seem to recall. But from the entire ad, what I have remembered are these lyrics, short and simple they may be, but they somewhow touched on the early notions of the beginnings of love that a woman(really do not picture a man thinking aloud these thoughts) would start to experience in her courtship. Dresses in white, watching comically as her husband begins to rush around the house, searching for his his mobile, car keys, briefcase, documents and blah.

Throughout his frantic search, she calmy points out all the paraphernalia that needs for his office with a serene look and a mona lisa smile on her face.

All this while, these words just flow on in the ad film and well.. this whole frame just remained as a mental movie in my mind. The song drove me crazy because I couldn't find it anywhere.

Sort of like finding love. We all have these notions of What love is like, the feeling of being in love and being loved back in return by the one we want and desire. To each to its own.

I waited, searched, forgot, looked, found it and lost it with a blink of an eye, fell for a lie, took a leap of faith, rose against society and brains, wanted it, got it, but didn't know what do to with it, dreamt of it all, just in the name of LOVE.

Maybe, this could be interpreted as a sign, as an understanding, that you will eventually achieve it.

As a wise man once said,

Ask, and you will be given.

Seek and you will find

- Matthew 7:7

ALL I am saying is "There is someone out there, who is also doing his best to get to you as fast as poosible so that you too can some day, hum those lyrics in your head and also wonder how you knew he/she needed you"

Cheers and good luck!