The past six weeks have been the most hellish, emotionally challenging, mind-numbingly painfull, confusing, claustrauphobic, self paralysing doubts, question filled, insecurity driven hours of my life!!!! I kid you not!!!
Kavi, my friend told me "make a fist with your hand Mosh. Thats how small, tiny our heart is. All the time all we give to it is stress, pain and all the sad mumbo jumbo which always invade our lives no matter how high and fortified the walls are. So for once, on your own accord, give the heart what it wants."
I listened to her. I gave the heart what it wants.
They know there is no future. We are not worried about it, for we do not even know what's going to happen tomorrow. We feel at times, a warm glow within ourselves when we are in one of our stolen moments "it feels for forever and always".
They say and he says "you will go away", I say "You will stop first" and "I might not live upto your expectations"
They also say, that you are doing the biggest mistake of your life.
It's okay, it's my mistake, he is or whatever tense "my favourite mistake", its my heart, it will blow up in my face, screw me only over, no one else will get affected.
The heart wants HIM now!!!
So Bring on the Pain On!!!