its pure vent and nothing else, so please ignore it

Ever feel left out even in a room full of people you know and don't know. Been a part of a group for a project but actually feel more like an intruder or a lone ranger than anything else.
It's like they all know the answers to the six honest men, but you are still just managing to find your foot and trying to keep it off the grass.
The forced politeness, I still haven't grasped or understood that concept. I hope to though.
The quizzical look on their face when you try to communicate with them, the zero effort on their part to even rememebr your name, its not that dificult once you actually try to make the effort to remember it, like I have for your's.
The surprise noise and shock and awe on finding out that none of their preconieved notions and prejudices were true(i'll grant them some though), whereas all my worst fears have come true.
They rattle me like no one has ever rattled me before.
Maybe I have given a hasty judgement in my kangaroo court, or maybe it's just me.(god I hope not, hehe)