It is purely frustrating to realise that we are define by the opputunities both; the ones we have grabbed with both our hands and the ones we have let gone off.

I would rank up high there, with letting tons of oppurtunities just fly me by especially when it hits you late in your life that you should have done that. What also hurts is that while you are sititng and obviously annoyed at the lack of oppurtunitites that come your way(partly y fault for letting so man go), you see complete imbeciles get your dream job, or see them living your dream life, just becuase they have the money and the contacts!!

ARGHH!! It is purely vent, a feeling that has come full circle if I go by the first post that I worte since I came here. I guess This country is done and time to move on accpet the truth like a mature, grown up, level headed person should.

But the impulsive and ultra sensitive and prone ot depression soul within me might not get over that so easily!

C'est La Vie