Into Dust

I was at my friends house, and all of us(there were 6 of us including me) were just sitting around and hanging out as we tend to do when we are with friends.I... I don't know what happened but it hit me like a lightning bolt from out of the blue. there i was, solving the Mid-day crossword( I love it!!!) when I felt out of place. Physicaly yes because I wasn't in Bombay anymore but, mentally I felt lost. Just imagine, a room full of your friends, there's food, music's playing aand suddenly you can't help but realise the fact that " I don't belong here". Feeling alone with your friends. It pulls at your heart and completely strains your mind, which makes you mind f-ed for about a day or two and you want to just go away because can't bear that feeling anymore. And then you start to wonder, "Is it me?" or "Is it them?". You don't want to know the answer anyways.

MAybe it was a bad phase that I was going through. It would eventually go away.

I saw my bond completely scatter and turn into dust right in front of me. It scared the shit out of me. So, I just picked up my bag, spoke to them over the phone ( they had gonne out to get stuff) tell them bye and then I left, to actually feel lost and alone among hordes of strangers that I meet everywhere I go. The feeling was just the same. Nothing new.
The most striking part about this entire incident, I didn't feel an ounce of guilt doing what I did to them. Shame on me.