No Sleep Tonight

I lay still on the bed, not even struggling. Just lying motionless on the mattress that I had laid down, directly under the fan, a necessity that would ensure a comfortable sleep from the Delhi summer heat at night.

Little did I know that it wasn't the heat that was going to keep me tossing all night, but rather the usual over speeding of thoughts that ran through my mind now, uninhibited and unstoppable.

There were thoughts of failure, what constitutes failing, what if people found out, then of society, my thoughts about society and people who judge(they can stick their views and opinions up their a#*!!), then just people, of finding the ideal boy, then right boy, then of friends, the close ones, the discrimination we make between our friends, then family, and how much family has done for me, and what I have done for family which bought me back to what I am doing now(waiting for a interview call !!) and this brings us back to the whole 'I hope I can live up to the expectations of me and my family, which leads us rightly back to 'what if I don't = failure.

No sleep tonight. (Damn it!!!)